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This Page is where I write Random Thoughts, Feelings, Quotes and Poems, hence the title. Most people don't have a CLUE what I think about. This isn't anything too private, but, more of a place to sort out my thoughts. Enjoy.

-10-39- 4:31 P.M.- All my friends are ignoring me, odd huh? But my heart was broken... why does it matter? Why am I even writing this? Why am I even trying to pretend someone cares? I know they don't. No1 cares. NO1! People really suck right now. Expecially when I'm trying to be myself, and no1 understands.
"Our Individuality makes us unique, our abnormailty makes us interesting."
"It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone." - Author Unknown
"For those who understand you, no explanation is necessary. For those who don't, none is possible." - Author Unknown
-10-20- 6:37 P.M.- Today was by far the worse day of the school year so far. In middle school no1 wanted to be my friend, and everyone made fun of me, tried to jump me in the halls, etc, but the big thing was to call me a lesbo. Then today my x Matt is back (who I dated over 1.5 years ago). At lunch him, Tommy, Jimmy, and Katie were all laughing at me, and Matt's like, "scream lesbo!" They all scream it, and start calling me one. And this is a REALLY sensitive subject for me. I went into the corner, and just sat there, and they were just pointing and laughing. Then I went into spanish when the bell rang and cried. It hurt soo much, because its a piece of my past that is soo hurtful and brings back a lot of tears, and hard times from last year. I'm so sad right now. I don't think anything will make me feel better. I'm dreading lunch tomorrow.
"By three methods we may learn wisdom: First, by reflection, which is noblest; Second, by imitation, which is easiest; and third by experience, which is the bitterest." - Confucius
-10-19- 9:30 P.M.- Dan and I are friends now. I'm glad. Tomorrow is an early day. School again. Time for some sleep!
"Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear." - Author Unknown
-10/19- 3:36 P.M.- Dan still hasn't called me. It's getting really hard to just stand here and wait. But, I can't be the one to call him. Here are some lyrics that explain it.
Three Days Grace- I Hate Everything About You

Everytime we lie awake
after every hit we take.
Every feeling that i get
but i haven't missed you yet.
Every room-mate kept awake
by every silent scream we make.
All the feelings that i get
but i still don't miss you yet.

Only when i stop to think about it

I hate everything about you
why do i love you?
I hate everything about you
why do i love you?

Everytime we lie awake
after every hit we take.
Every feeling that I get
but i haven't missed you yet.

Only when i stop to think about it

I hate everything about you
why do i love you?
I hate everything about you
why do i love you?

Only when i stop to think about you,
i know.
Only when you stop to think about me,
do you know?

I hate everything about you
why do i love you?
You hate everything about me
why do you love me?

I hate
you hate
I hate
you love me

I hate everything about you
why do i love you?
-10/19- 12:36 P.M.- I'm really pissed off, people keep calling me a bitch for no reason. Are people saying stuff about me that I don't know? Here are some lyrics to one of my favorite songs.
Something Corporate- Konstantine

I can't imagine all the people that you know
and the places that you go
when the lights are turned down low
and I don't understand all the things you've seen
but i'm slipping inbetween
you and your big dreams
it's always you
in my big dreams

and you tell me that it's over
wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clovers
and your restless, and i'm naked
you've gotta get out
you can't stand to see me shaking
could you let me go?
I didn't think so

and you don't wanna be here in the future
so you say the present's just a pleasent interruption to the past
and you don't wanna look much closer
cuz your afraid to find out all this hope
you had sent into the sky by now had crashed
and it did
because of me

and then you bring me home
afraid to find out that you're alone
and i'm sleeping in your living room
but we don't have much room to live

I had these dreams that i learned to play guitar
maybe cross the country
become a rock star
and there was hope in me that i could take you there
but dammit you're so young
well i don't think i care
and if i hurt you
then i'm sorry
please don't think that this was easy

then you bring me home
cuz we both know what it's like to be alone
and i'm dreaming in your living room
but we don't have much room to live

and konstantine is walking down the stairs
doesn't she look good
standing in her underwear
and i was thinking
what i was thinking
we've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere

my Konstantine came walking down the stairs
and all that i could do is touch her long blonde hair
and i've been thinking
it hurts me thinking that these nights
when we were drinking no they never got us anywhere

this is because i can spell konfusion with a k
and i like it
it's to dying in another's arms and why I had to try it
it's to jimmy eat world and those nights in my car
when the first star you see may not be a star
I'm not your star
isn't that what you said
what you thought this song meant

and if this is what it takes
just to lie in my mistakes
and live with what i did to you
and all the hell I put you through
I always catch the clock
it's 11:11
and now you want to talk
it's not hard to dream
you'll always be my konstantine

konstantine, they'll never hurt you like i do
no they'll never hurt you like i do
no, no, no no no no no no

this is to a girl who got into my head
with all the pretty things she did
you know
you keep me up in bed
this is to a girl who got into my head
with all the fucked up things i did
you could keep me up in bed
my Konstantine
spin around me like a dream we played out on this movie screen
and i said
did you know i missed you?
oh god i miss you

and then you bring me home
and we'll go to sleep, but this time, not alone, no no
and you'll kiss me in your living room
i know
you'll miss me in your living room
cuz these nights i think maybe that i'll miss you in my living room
we don't have much room
i said does anybody need that room?
because we all need a little more room
to live

my Konstantine
-10/17- 11:30 P.M.- Tonight at the movies sucked, me and Dan arn't speaking. He was drunk tonight and payed no attention to me. I was sick, but I hung out with Brian.
We're only friends,
how I long to be more.
I know your not the best influence on me,
why do I feel this way?
Can't make these feelings stop,
can't make the pain go away.
We just met,
but, I'm falling in love.
What is it about you,
that takes my breath away?
All those long nights,
shedding tears for you.
Longing for your touch,
or just the sound of your voice.
Waiting for the pain,
in this dangerous game called love.




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